“When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.” Psalm 56:3

When I feel afraid, it’s usually because…. I put my trust in ME. 
I deeply fear failure, and I’ve a horror of disappointing the people around me. I naturally feel safest when I feel like I’m in control, when I am “performing” excellently. {ahem enneagram #type3} BUT over and over I see that in my weakness, God’s strength is most magnificently displayed.

Farming independently brings many opportunities for NOT being in control, as the systems of how/what we grow are incredibly fragile. While we work hard to be on top of all the tasks and carefully observe what’s happening with each crop, we’re largely at the mercy of many uncontrollable factors. 
These past eight years have been an amazing and fertile period of growth for both Steve and me – to grow in farming and business knowledge, maturing in our marriage, but even more to grow personally in grace and faith. It’s been the adventure of a lifetime, and we’re certainly not done learning!

I’ve had to ask myself almost daily, “Do you believe God is sovereign, or not? If yes, then how should you act right now?”

I’m so thankful for God’s patience with us, and for his faithfulness to put us in situations where we’re stretched and pushed to grow. He is faithful to keep us!

Those he saves are his delight / He will hold me fast. -Ada Habershon